Him

Those pretty brown eyes and the way he smiles flashing those dimples man I swear this boy got me messed up I never thought I'd end up feeling like this his voice giving me chills he calles me mouse and the butterflies in my tummy erupt he got me insane the way he making me act I can't explain.

11 painful things

1: Bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget

2: Reminiscing the good times 

3: Trying to hide what you really feel

4: Loving someone who loves another 

5: Having a commitment with someone you know won't last 

6: Shielding your heart to love someone 

7: Loving a person too much 

8: Right love at the wrong time 

9: Taking risk to fall in love again 

10: Accepting that it was never meant to be 

11: The "What if's"

Time

You used to be the only reason for my misery,

You tried to drag me down,

I won’t let you drag me down,

The weight on my shoulders is now brushed off,

I almost wonder what my life would have been like if someone had seen the helplessness in my eyes I often wanted to let you go through with it,

I wanted to know how far you would go, how far you would drag me down.

almost

I almost want to quit.

I almost want there to be a place of my own that no one knows about.

I almost want to be in 2 different places at once.

I almost want to be able to see the future.

I almost don't know what I want.

I almost want to keep myself from people.

I almost don't want to be alone.

I almost want time to just stop.  

I almost want to be reckless.

I almost don't want to know.