Little Me

I wish I could go back and tell the little me that everything will be alright, that she'll finally leave the box she's in and she'll learn what real love and caring is. The moves and all the back fires will end and she'll be the happiest she's ever been. She just needs to have a little patience.

Love Liberates

It's a strong word.
Sometimes it can set you free. It gives you a safe comfortable place to be.
More often at times people use it to manipulate but we think that it's real.
Love liberates everyone it may not look like it but it does and it's the best feeling out there.

The girl in the box

The box she wishes to escape.

The expectations she dreads.

It kills her to be inside.

What she doesn't know is that the box itself is waiting for her to leave, escape the nightmare it knos it put her through.

TRY

I'm trying to be seen but everyone covers their eyes.

I'm trying to be heard but everyone covers their ears.

I'm trying to be more than what everyone expects from little me.

I'm trying to prove them wrong.

I'm trying my best to be the best for myself.

But at least the little girl inside of me is trying.

Unknown

"Everything is fine". But before you know it things come  crashing down. The waves of emotions comes to build a wall blocking out the whisper of those in the unknown shadows.

lost the chance

I told you how i felt and you pushed me away. made me feel like I was nothing all those damn late night talks we had suddenly mean nothing they are no longer here.
I wonder how everything would have been if I hadn't told you.

Rections

You have me in your heart like that tattoo on your shoulder.

You know you can’t afford that strike let that be a lesson to your lies.

I’m watching you get older yet less bold.

Yet you still have me in your heart like that tattoo on your shoulder.

No fucks given let us switch up the chemicals.

Gold cuffs that’s what I call a chain reaction.

WHY!!!!!!!!

I don’t know what this means or why I’m having these dreams.

The past year I’ve had the same dream. I’m in a white Cinderella dress and as I look over to my “husband” I’m met with this not so familiar person. He’s in a suit smiling at me. Once we finish with our vows and saying “I do” we turn and look out and I see that most of our guests are officers. Once we walked out of the church I’m met with a flood of bodies and officers I look down to my dress only it’s not a dress anymore. I’m in dress pants with a black blouse and a coat with FBI on the top left shoulder. I look and see that my “husband” is wearing the same thing. I walk over to him and before I can say anything he informs me on the victims in front of me. As I try and talk to him I wake up , other nights that I have the dream it’s my husband that’s laying on the floor dead. Sometimes I’m working on his case and others I’m in my wedding dress while he is in his suit looking at him lifeless everyone trying to drag me away from him. I don’t know what to think about these dreams anymore it’s like on specific nights I have this dream and there are different layers to it like as if I’m supposed to figure out this puzzle.

Would you

I wanted you as my everything but I knew that dreams didn’t always come true.

I will always want to be the one you love the most .

At some points you had this coming but I knew I couldn’t let you find out .

We lost what we once had to lies and secrets that lay underneath out feet.

I will always come back and forgive you for your sins but the real question is can you forgive yourself?

Mistake

I wanted you and I wanted you close. I thought we were happy and having our fairy tale ending. Now I know we can’t make this shit work. You said you’d be true and I was the only one for you now who looks like the fool? You had me crazy with all your right words. Charming; isn’t that some shit? Being smooth with all your goofy ass moves? Said you liked it, were going to put a ring on it but you don’t want to be “tied down” boy you just playing around.

Hollow

I like my hollow space,
The place where I store my lingering thoughts. 

There in the place where it makes sense to be different creature,
Not being made like somewhat an animal. 

Some might think that its a deep dark place but in reality its quite a relaxing place,
Almost like a quaint palace.


Its my little heaven, it's safe and I call it home.

Best things

Sometimes the best thing is to just not care the longer you hold onto things the more you hurt yourself in more than just one way. I don’t think many people realize this until it’s too late.

It’s sad how many things can go wrong for many in such little time and its sad that’s it’s the most deserving people that struggle for everything. The people that strive for everything always end up getting the short end of the straw. I don’t understand why the most amazing people have a hard time it baffles me really.

Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny... C.S Lewis 

Sometimes

People lose too much and they don’t understand until it’s too late. I don’t understand why everyone takes things for granted. Were supposed to be there for one another and yet that never happens you take advantage of the nice side of people. Everyone is stuck with their own judgments. Some just want to rid you from their lives

The Pawn

You made me nervous

Those butterflies came anytime you smiled at me 

I wanted to make you happy 

It was all a game

A simple mistake

Wish i could go back in time

Sometimes i want to hate you but i still love you 

I want to rid you from my life

But you made some of the best memories.

Love made me blind

Love made me cry

It made me lie

Love changed me entirely

I didn't recognize the person in the mirror

Love made me do it

It took my pride

Love fought against me

Love made me blind.

Quotes

“Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.” – Lucille ball

“Love is friendship set to music”. – Joseph Campbell

“I’m much more me when I’m with you”. – Unknown

“I saw that you were perfect, and so I loved you. Then I saw that you weren’t perfect and I loved you even more”. – Angelita Lim

“The heart wants what it wants there’s not logic to these things. You meet someone and you fall in love and that’s it”. – Woody Allen

“At the touch of love everyone is a poet”. – Plato

“Pleasure of love lasts but a moment. Pain of love lasts a lifetime”. Bette Davis

“Love is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it”. – Charles R. Swindoll

Inspirational people, inspirational quotes

“Nowadays people know the price of everything and the value of nothing”. – Oscar Wilde

“There is no easy answer but there are simple answers”.  - Ronald Reagan

“If you judge people you have no time to love them”. – Mother Teresa

“The truth is everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for”. – Bob Marley

“Every child is an artist; the problem is staying the artist when you grow up”. – Pablo Picasso

“Good people don’t need laws to tell them to act responsibility and bad people will find a way around the laws”. – Plato

“I walk slowly but never backwards”. – Abraham Lincoln

“Think about all the beauty still left around you and be happy”. – Anne Frank   

E.A.P

It is a happiness to wonder; it is a happiness to dream.

I do not suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it.

Words have no power to impress the mind without the exquisite horror of their reality.

I grew, day by day, more moody, more irritable, more regardless of the feelings of others.

We loved with a love that was more than love.

                       Edgar Allen Poe

So close

My Soul? That's black
The color or my sky? That's grey
Color of my eyes? Those are black as well.
Why? that's always the question. well that's the color I match with my soul. Its full of emptiness that fills my broken heart. It matches the burning flames in this resistant vessel. I mean look at it this way isn't it reality? Were just vessels "born for something great". All we're good for is living strange lives that  we're implied to love and befriend total strangers who maybe in the next life we wont even remember. The real sad thing is we're living in this absurd life.

My Mr.Almost

" You were once so close my Mr.Almost"

This line is from a song i wrote a few years back. my best friend (at the time) sister was engaged. Her and her fiance were together for 5 years before he proposed. Almost a month till the wedding she found out the truth. He had been cheating on her for a few of those years.Everything seemed perfect between the two but it wasn't I guess. When I wrote the song I knew it had to be about heartbreak (as are most of them) but this story spoke out to me and it was some what relatable to many people we all have that one person we want to truley be our one and only but we know they never will. 

everything

You are what god calls an angel, the sunshine to every morning.
Our entire world I don't think I'd know what to do if you were gone, ripped from us.
My whole world is you. You make us smile and laugh the most most random things you say and do is amazing.
I love you my little angel.  

Why

So I wrote this on my tumblr account but i thought i should also share this on here.


Why should I have to be alright with everything.

Why should I be the one to forget everything.

Why shouldn't you be punished for your actions 

Why do we keep doing this to each other.

We keep pretending that everything is okay that its fine when its not.

Why cant we save each other from this world that we're both drowning in...why.

Sometimes

Sometimes people come into our lives that we didn't we really needed.
Sometimes its the people that love you the most that hurt you the most.
Sometimes things change for the best.
Things are not always what they seem but we just have to hope everything turns out great for the best.
We are who we are for a purpose.
There are people and things that will enter your life at different time to show you different lessons, some of us learn and others dont depends if those lessons were the best ones.

Sorry

Hey guys just wanted to say I was sorry I havent been updating because I've been writing stories on a different app I will be starting to write again. I'll be starting on the weekends and then I'll take it from there I will also be starting a Youtube channel very soon so I will make updates. I'm so excited my parents will be helping me start a dream I've had since I was 11 years old. This is really long over due. I have a whole list of things I need to get done. I need my wall done, the camera,lights,I have my to do my background cover on my page and need to finish up some skits I'll be doing.So yeah ok I guess this is just a little ramble I need to do sorry guys once again I'll start up again soon thank you for all the support.